Over the years I've had several people say to me, "You are so strong, Kim!" or "I wish I was as strong as you!"or "How do you stay so strong with all you've been through?"
I have a confession to make. I am the weakest of weak. I am not strong at all. If you saw me in the privacy of my home, or while I am driving, or at the cabin in the mountains you would see what I mean! Tears flow easily and freely. I am often afraid. There are days that my heart is broken in two. Some days it's all I can do to breathe. There are days that I feel so weak. I often wonder how I will make it through the day....
Here's the amazing part! God makes me strong! He makes me brave! If you see any strength in me, it is Him! I often think of Moses. He felt so inadequate, yet God chose him to lead the people of Israel through the wilderness. I think of Peter. He jumped out of that boat, then realized the danger and began to sink. But Jesus made him brave! And he walked to Him! I am no where close to Moses or Peter. I am just a simple country girl, a high school graduate, a mom, and a nanny to two precious boys.
But somehow, someway, God makes me strong! He makes me brave. When life throws me curve balls, He makes me strong! There have been many curve balls thrown my way in the past few years. I've watched a man commit suicide. I've lost my best friend. I've lost my favorite dog. (only dog lovers will understand that) I've known child molesters. I've gone through many health issues including a DVT, major surgery, migraines, serious UTI's and several medical test. Then there was an ugly divorce, losing friends as a result of my divorce, changing jobs, financial problems, a couple of broken hearts, Alzheimer's with close friends and very close family, death of loved ones, and serious heart decease with family members. It's all happened in the last 7 years. It sounds like more than any soul can bear.
Yet HE makes me strong. The strength you may see is NOT me! I am weak. I am the the weakest of the weak. But somehow, some way God gives me strength. It's supernatural. It can only come from Him. He gives me courage that I am not capable of on my own. He gives me strength to step outside of my comfort zone. I've gone to places I never thought I could manage. It's all God! He is my strength. He takes this woman who is so incredibly weak, and He makes me strong, He makes me brave. He has given me total forgiveness for those who have hurt me, love for those who seemed unlovable, and strength to walk through everything life has handed me.
I am writing this for everyone out there who feels so weak. I am weak, too. But the God of all Creation can make you strong! I am no different than you! Believe Him. Trust Him. And cry out to Him, just like I do. He will make you brave!
"I have heard You calling my name
I have heard the song of love that You sing
So I will let You draw me out beyond the shore
Into Your grace...
You make me brave" Bethel
Thank you for reading. I am humbled. He will make you brave, too!
Much love!
