I don't know about you, but I seem to have a song, or a particular CD for every season in my life. Whatever the song (or songs) are, I play them over and over again, singing (and sometimes shouting) them out to my Father.
As life goes on and I hear the songs again, they remind me of the season in my life that I was in when I used to play the song over and over again. I always remember what was going on in my life, how I was feeling, and what God did during that particular season.
For the past two weeks I have had one song that has become my theme song. It's called "Oceans", by Hillsong. (Thank you Linda Graham for telling me to listen to it). The entire song seems to be about the season of life I am in. Please indulge me while I share a few of the lyrics, and what I have learned about myself, and my faith over the past several days.
"You call me out onto the waters, the great unknown"...This perfectly describes my life for the past 18 months. I have been living my life on the edge, following Christ into the great unknown. At times it has been difficult, painful and frustrating. It also has been a beautiful journey full of miracles, grace and mercy.
God has done some things in my life that are so unbelievable, and incredible. I have witnessed miracles. I am no longer afraid of "the great unknown". I view life as an adventure now. I have seen God's Hand and His works up close and personal, so I know I have nothing to fear in this new great unknown life I am living.
"Where my feet may fail, and fear surrounds me, You've never failed and You won't start now." Wow! Truth! There's really not much I can add here. There have been days I was so fearful. God has never failed me. Never! I have never walked alone. I am entering the next adventure in my life with nothing but shear trust that He will not fail.
"My soul will rest in Your embrace. For I am Yours and You are mine." I have literally gone to bed at night and felt His embrace, the warmth of His love, peace that makes no sense. I should have been worried and afraid. But instead, I have felt the warmth of His embrace amidst the chaos that was going on around me.
Last night I was having dinner with a life long friend. We have both fought battles that we never dreamed we would be fighting. While our battles were very different, we both have seen who God is, and what He can do in incredible ways.
She and I were discussing this song. We began to talk about the lyric, "Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders." We both got very excited as we began to discuss what this means to each us. Trust without borders! That's my greatest, deepest desire for my life. I want to live my life so abandoned to God, that my faith has no borders. I want to ask Him for any and everything. I want to believe that there are no limitations to what He can and will do if I will only ask. I do not want to miss anything that He intends for me.
I have watched what he's done in my dear friend, Lisa's, life. I have also watched what He has done in my life. All I can say is this- I want more! I would not change one second of my journey. My journey has shown me so much about my Father. I want more of Him. I want to go deeper with Him. I totally trust Him, in the darkest times, and in the best of times. He truly makes beauty from ashes. Even as I am typing, I could shout!
My hope, and my prayer is that each of you will allow Him to lead you to trust without borders. If He is calling you to something that frightens you, take the leap! He will not fail! He will do greater than you could ever imagine.
As I enter this next adventure in my life, I am excited. I know it will come with difficulties and stress. But I also know that God is leading me to take this leap of faith. As I obey Him with "trust without borders" He will walk with me every single step of the way. His presence with be so near, I will almost be able to touch Him.
To my precious friends who are reading this...If He's calling you...Leap!!! Whatever that means in your life, walk upon the waters! The journey is so beautiful!
"Let me walk upon the waters, wherever you would call me, take me deeper than my feet could ever wander...For I am Yours, and you are mine..."
