My heart was pounding out of my chest as I pulled out of the driveway on 9/11/13. It was finally here. The day my divorce would be final. I had grieved for months. I had cried, been angry, and felt lonely. But today I found myself in a very good mood. I thought I'd be sad, cry, or be somber at the very least. But instead, I was excited. I was going on an adventure…alone!
I was starting a new chapter in the life of Kim Price Weaver. The future was uncertain, but the feeling was amazing. God had placed it on my heart that He had something special for me to do in this new chapter. What? I still don't know. Part of the adventure is figuring it all out. What I do know for sure is that He will walk with me every step of the way. He has done that since this divorce nightmare has begun, and He will continue to lead me. I have total trust in His unseen Hand, and can not wait to see where He takes me. I already see His purpose in bringing me through this trial. Trust. Totally unadulterated trust.
As I drove, I reflected on the past, and the future. To my surprise, I had no regrets about my past marriage. I had only fond memories of my kids growing up and the good times we had together. As I thought about the future, I felt deep inside of me that the future will hold helping others, giving of myself, my life knowledge, and my faith to other people. I do not know what that will include. I am clueless. But I do know my Father has led me here, to this day, to this moment for a purpose. My new found freedom will be used in some way for His kingdom. His purpose is to use me for His glory, and I am excited...
Winding through the mountains, and making turns for a few miles, I finally saw it! My "very own palace"! My place of refuge and restoration. It is so beautiful here. I never want to leave! But I also know, the adventure God has for me is not here. It is at home.
If you read my blog regularly, you know I wrote about "The View from the Top" several weeks ago. I am here! I finally made it! Along the way, there has been many trials and tribulations. I have cried more tears than I care to remember. I have made amazing friends that love me unconditional. Outside of my family, and a few dear friends, I didn't know that was possible. But my friends, both new and old, have shown me differently. They have cried with me, helped me weed through the legal maze, made me laugh, and most of all, loved me with a love only God could give. Grateful. I am so grateful!
I will step back into the real world on Saturday. Please pray for me as I seek to follow God every step of the way. And, though I am willing to go through more trials, please pray that I get a break from all the trials I have been through for this past year, both with my serious health issues, (which are much much better) and divorce related trials. I still need God's unseen hand as things continue.
Much Love!
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