"For I am about to do something new..."

My first ever blog! I can't believe I am doing this. The journey I have been on since I have been a Christian (25 years) has been incredible. But, the last three years have been unbelievable. It's been a roller coaster. There have been highest of highs and the lowest of lows, victories, defeats, questions about God, and questions about life. I have walked through circumstances that I never, in my wildest dreams, thought I'd go through. I have witnessed first hand (whether in my life, or the lives of those closest to me) the effects of suicide, sexual molestation, verbal and emotional abuse, depression, adultery, addiction, badly broken hearts, betrayal, neglect, dementia, an empty nest, and so much more. While all this sounds so horrendous (and it has been), life has also been laced with so much joy, laughter, fun times, love, healing, wonderful friendships, and victories! So don't feel bad for me! Its been a beautiful journey! :)

I have also witnessed and experienced Gods love, grace and mercy, heard His voice, and felt His presence in incredible ways. Sometimes, when I have felt I needed Him most, He has been silent. And sometimes, when I was least expecting it, He has shown up and done the most amazing things. He is a mystery to me, and yet the Love of my life. And no matter what, I have found Him faithful. I have found Him to be more than I could ever imagine.

So, I have decided to start this blog and document the journey. If anyone can gain anything from my walk, then I will be thrilled. I certainly don't have all the answers. In fact, I am still in the process of figuring a lot of things out. Most days I feel like I am feeling my way around in the dark. Its funny how the older you get, the less you seem to know about anything! As I was thinking about how to write, God reminded me to be respectful :) and mindful of the privacy of those who walk through life closest to me. So at times, I will have to leave some of my journey out. And at times I will change the names, alter the events, or change the places in order to protect the privacy of others.

So here I go.... like a long drive in the mountains, or a walk in the park, lets go on this journey together, and talk...