I only write blogs when God inspires me. Sometimes they are a few weeks apart. And sometimes they are a few days apart. I hope this one didn't come too soon, but I have walked through a life experience that I never dreamed of over the last few weeks. And I have come out of it with some words of wisdom that keep playing over and over in my mind...
"If it looks like a duck, swims like a duck, and quacks like a duck, then it probably is a duck."
Sometimes the duck is screaming, "I am a swan!" All the more reason to know for certain that its a duck.
Thinking back over a recent heart break, I have found myself praying earlier today, and saying to God, "Why can't I be one of those people who gets mad and and writes them off? It would be so much easier!" As soon as I said it, I found myself saying, "I didn't mean that, Lord. I am happy that I am not that way. Thank You for allowing me to continue to love.." You see, I have quickly come to realize that this experience wasn't about me, or my family. It happened solely for other people. My heart is so full of compassion and sorrow. I desperately want my friend to love God and know the peace that only He can give. I made excuses for the "duck" in my life. I wanted to believe that what I had found wasn't true. I wanted to believe that my friend would never do that to me or my family. I am resigned to the truth now. But oh, how I long for God to be merciful, and make beauty from the ashes that are all around. How I long to see my friend transformed to a beautiful, graceful "swan" even after all the pain and betrayal.
Father God, You and You alone can make this happen. May I never stop loving, no matter what is said. And I am asking You for a day very soon, that I can see You on the face of my friend. Oh, how You love..."I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way He loves..."
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